I DEVELOPED PHYSICAL DISABILITIES In many—if not most—cases, people with mental illness need medication to help them cope with life. That has certainly been the case for me. In 1965 I was diagnosed with schizophrenia because of my struggles with psychosis. That diagnosis stayed with me for twenty years until it was changed to bipolar […]
Read More...“I WAS DETERMINED TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE” Excerpt from A Firm Place to Stand, Marja Bergen, 2008 If I go up to the heavens, you are there. If I make my bed in the depths you are there. Psalm 139:8 The last straw, the final thing that started my mind working overtime and threw […]
Read More...LIVING ROOM MEMORIES 279 (May 7, 2010) You know, I’d rather be into rapid cycling than in a solid depression, as I was at this time last year. The lows I go through now only last a few hours. The depression only got alarmingly low one day. That was followed by a high the next […]
Read More...LIVING ROOM MEMORIES 278 (May 2, 2010) Almost every day over the past while I wake up feeling awful. As the day progresses things usually improve. This morning it happened again. I felt so depressed. But as I sipped my coffee and looked out over the yard, the patio, and my favourite chair, I thought […]
Read More...LIVING ROOM MEMORIES 270 (March 16, 2010) Big disappointment. We had to cancel the plans for a seminar because a couple of the speakers weren’t able to make it on the date we had planned. And there’s no other good time this year for me to devote to it. A trip in late May and […]
Read More...LIVING ROOM MEMORIES 269 (March 12, 2010) I’m healing. Feeling rather quiet and not carefree yet, but healing. This morning I talked to the person who I had hurt and his response to my apology was comforting. I knew he would forgive, yet I did need to talk to him personally and hear him say […]
Read More...LIVING ROOM MEMORIES 268 (March 11, 2010) I’ve come to a place where I haven’t been before, at least I don’t recollect having been here before. I hate having this disorder and lacking the control I would like to have over my feelings and subsequent behaviour. Last week I was hard on a person, blaming […]
Read More...LIVING ROOM MEMORIES 227 (March 31, 2009) I’m trying to deal with an understanding I’ve come to that one of my friends simply considers me a project – someone to support because I have bipolar. And that hurts. I’ve always considered her one of my best friends, feeling her love and care. She has been […]
Read More...LIVING ROOM MEMORIES 219 (January 20, 2009) Someone who has bipolar disorder and hasn’t been able to work for awhile wrote: “I personally feel discouragement, a loss of identity, and a lot of shame & guilt having been off work for this long.” I can well remember similar feelings – actually throughout most of my […]
Read More...LIVING ROOM MEMORIES 210 (December 9, 2008) I’ve been on a roller coaster for about two months now – times when I’ve been okay and other times when I’ve felt very down, not knowing how I can continue, wishing I could get off the ride. I’ve heard some people with bipolar say how they think […]
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