(June 26, 2008)

Tomorrow is Living Room day, but I don’t feel ready. Something happened tonight that threw a block of darkness in my way, making it hard to feel at peace. A friend misunderstood me and over-reacted, getting quite angry with me. I care about this person, so it’s hard on me to have this happen. I don’t like having people mad at me.

So many of my Christian friends have talked about attacks from Satan just before they were going to do some kind of work for God. And I remember the time last year that I was hit by a bus the day before Living Room. Though I wasn’t hurt and there wasn’t much damage to the car, it was pretty hard to get into the spirit that Living Room deserves. Tonight I feel dark again – not where I should be emotionally or spiritually.

Friends have often reminded me of Ephesians 6:10-18: “Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes….put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand….” My friends tell me that there will be times I’ll need to do that. I often say, “That hardly ever happens to me.” But here it is happening now. I will need to read that passage well over the next while.

I pray that my friend will forget about being mad at me tomorrow. I pray that all will be forgotten. I was only trying to be helpful and she took it all wrong.

I pray that I will awake tomorrow with the dark blockage gone from my heart. I’ll pray that God will fill me with his love and help me share that love with the people at Living Room. I’ll pray for peace and healing.