From Wichita:
“Yesterday, I had to say goodbye to a dear friend of mine, because I became emotional and said things I never should have. I tried to be responsible. I walked away so she wouldn’t have to deal with that, because no one should have to. I told my siblings what I really thought of them a couple days before that, because they always use my past against me, and lie about me. And a couple days ago I put my guitar away and said, ‘I’m done.’”
She sounds pretty matter-of-fact in relating these losses. But, if she’s anything like me, there will be times when the darkness overcomes her as she considers what the losses say about her and who she is. The loneliness and inability to have a secure part in other people’s lives overcome her and sink her into a depth that’s hard to escape. She feels cut off. As the night wears on and the emptiness continues, she wonders how to escape. To leave the shame of who she is behind.
She needs a kind person to talk to.
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