(June 18, 2009)

Thank God. Living Room is in good hands. We had a volunteer offer to coordinate and facilitate the July and August meetings. And many hands have offered to help with all the other details, like the lunches.

I’ve had some good days and then some bad. On the bad days, I don’t necessarily feel dark, but all I want to do is sleep. And then it’s hard to motivate myself to do anything. That lack of motivation is very discouraging and – yes – depressing.

And I wonder: I’ve been struggling like this for over six months now. How much longer will it continue? When I’m down, I lose all hope. Will I ever be able to get off this roller coaster? Am I doomed to continue the rest of my life in this condition? When can I truly pick up my work with enthusiasm again?

This morning I meditated on Philippians 4:6-7. “The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

And in verse 8, Paul talks about all the excellent and praiseworthy things we need to think about. Good advice. Please, God, help me cling to these verses today.