Is God enough? – comment (2019)

In my previous post, I wrestled with the problem I often came up against. I wrote:

“In this struggle of depression I’ve also struggled with a need for support, a feeling bad about burdening my friends with my sadness. I need my friends at times like this, yet something someone said in a comment on my last post particularly made me feel that perhaps I should not be bothering them. And the question I repeatedly find myself asking is: Shouldn’t God be enough for me?”

You might remember a few posts ago when I wasn’t given an opportunity to speak to the topic: “We only need God; we don’t need people.”  http://marjabergen.com/archives/comment-on-in-the-company-of-jesus-2019

Years ago – in 2008 – when I was still facilitator of the group, I did receive a pastoral explanation: “And when we are with [depressed people] in Jesus’ name and with his love and compassion we also become the presence of God to them.”

That had always been my point of view too, but in 2015 I was ignored when I wanted to discuss it – treated as though I no longer existed. It hurt badly.

Many situations like this developed until I was experiencing so much pain I had to leave the church – the spiritual home I had loved and where I had learned so much. The birthplace of my Living Room ministry and the place from which I spent many hours raising awareness in the church. The church where I had at one time received the greatest support and the most godly love I had ever known. This is where I came to know God in a deeper way that ever before.

Where did it all go?