A good two days
with visits from friends.

And I think to myself,
maybe this illness is not that bad.

I lay down to relax
with a mid-afternoon nap.

But as I awoke I could not see beyond.
I was sinking, unable to stop.

Hopeless.
Life is hopeless when it deceives you at every turn.

You think all is good,
yet in the next moment all you want is to die.

marja