Looking at the post below, I can clearly see how very much I came to miss that kind of love when it was later withdrawn. I can see how very cruel it was. It was no wonder I was badly affected emotionally. What turned that amazing love I received – the love in which I had seen God – into cold abandonment? Was it deception right from the start? Why was I treated with such love at first, only to be cruelly rejected later? What had I done that was so bad?

…and I think about what I later discovered: clear indications they wanted to drive me from the church.

“Why don’t you go to another church?” one person told me when I had been excluded from a small group.
“Why didn’t you just leave?” another had said in an anonymous comment to my blog.

Both of those statements from individuals I had at one time counted as friends.