One of the worst things about depression is to see how your partner is affected. It’s the way it gets him down as well. You end up feeling guilty. So now you have depression and guilt. It’s a double whammy.

It would be nice to just be able to pull inward, letting no one bother you. And you not having to bother others. So good it would be to isolate, to hide under the covers, not to be seen by anyone.

But no man is an island someone once said. And didn’t someone also say that we’re all part of the whole? But what to do when the whole breaks apart and hasn’t the wherewithal to come together again? What happens when the will is gone?

You write a letter to God. You write a blogpost. You take a deep breath and take one more step.