Who is saying things like that about me? Is it a person with a medical degree? Is it a therapist who has treated me for a long time and knows me?

If it isn’t one of these telling others I’m not in my right mind, it should not be believed. If someone is guessing – but not truly knowing this to be true – he is spreading falsehoods and causing great damage to my reputation.

I’m quite sure disbelief in what I say has been rampant over the last few years. Even those who used to be my friends think that what I say can’t be believed. Where has this come from? Maybe from here:

They may not be aware that even the most likeable and respected person may have reasons to spread untruths. What is motivating them to say such things about me? Remember, not everyone who seems like a good person, is necessarily so. The Bible says “beware.”

I feel as though I’m in a straitjacket. Not free to live with others. Not free to speak and be heard. Not considered a real human being.

Sarah Hamid-Balma from the CMHA  recently sent me this when I complained about such situations as mine:

“I’m so sorry to hear what you’ve been going through and what you’re watching people you care about go through. People with mental illnesses are more often victimized, taken advantage of and disbelieved because of their conditions, which is the worst kind of discrimination. When someone in a position of trust and authority is preying on someone who’s vulnerable it’s truly despicable.”

By the way, I’m quite sane. Yes, I have emotional problems, but the only way I’m affected is by traumatic memories bringing depression, moods and risk of suicide. A personality change from what it was as well. I’m not as “nice” as I used to be and feel very bad about that. And the bipolar disorder I’ve always had.

None of the above affect my ability to make sense. My thoughts and subsequent writings can be trusted – as they always have been. I have been referred to by some as wise and a pastor-of-sorts.

Who says I’m out of my mind?

marja