And I wonder. Did I deserve all this? Was it right that the person hurting me was not stopped? I had asked for him to be confronted. Maybe he was just too powerful ā€“ not the humble person Christ calls us to be. Iā€™m guessing the elders might not have been able to hold him accountable as they should have. Or maybe they didn’t think it important.

Why was this happening to me?

While a couple of friends invited me to tell them how I was being hurt, their allegiance lay with the person who was hurting me. Instead of stopping him, they seemed to be protecting him. Why did I not mistrust them sooner?

Trouble is, I was hurting badly and I had no one else in the church to go to.