Dear Lord,

What happened to the person I was?
Hated by someone I never imagined would hate.
…and the pain that came,
the deep deep pain.

Today I sit with the one I love,
sorry it’s all so hard on him,
sorry I can’t be what I was.
Will he too hate me now?

It seems I’ve become easy to hate,
hard to love.

And yet, Lord,
I had always loved so much!
I helped so many; greeted people with a smile.

Where has the true me gone?

Where now, Lord?

The only place I can think of
is to leave before creating more ill.
Please save me, Lord,
from this shame and misery.