Marja Bergen

author, mental health activist, follower of Christ

Category: Day by Day (page 2 of 10)

Living with borderline: part 5 – betrayal

DIARY: Waking up, flooded with painful memories once more. Having given all she had, yet robbed. Robbed of all she invested, all that had made her feel worthy.   When something or someone is stolen from me while I’m rendered helpless because of mental ill health, the pain is excruciating. Being hurt in this way […]

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Living with borderline: part 4 – Personality or character?

BPD is referred to as a personality disorder. Does that mean that those of us who are thus diagnosed have a bad personality? And what is a personality anyway? How does it differ from character? Character refers to a set of moral and mental qualities and beliefs, that makes a person different from others. A […]

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Living with borderline: part 2 – when we were children

  DIARY: Waking up – again in a place I didn’t think I’d be. Why do I feel like a child, even now? But I’m at peace. Comforted. Secure. The quilt is warm and cozy. If only I could always stay here. But life tells me I must move on. I can’t remain a child […]

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Living with borderline: part 3 – what’s it like?

  “Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me.” Matthew 5:11 Everyone feels a degree of pain when hurt through rejection or through others’ words or actions. For those living with BPD, such pain is considerably more intense. With this piece I […]

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My only constant: from a borderline’s diary

  “There is no one like you, Lord, and there is no God but you, as we have heard with our own ears.” 1 Chronicles 17:20   I awoke this morning, softly crying like a child, wondering how I would carry on. Greece only a couple of weeks away – the holiday we had promised […]

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Victimized

  A victim. Blamed for the cruelty of another. Not believed. A victim, Abandoned by those who once cared. A victim. Remorse, her one need denied. A victim. A child without mother to hold her close. A victim. Wrapped in undeserved shame. Forevermore? marja  

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Living with borderline: the problem of stigma

Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is not adequately described by the label it commonly goes by. A more accurate description would be emotional dysregulation. BPD has nine features. Some of us have all of them; others, like me, have only some. For more information about the disorder, google BPD. But don’t allow what you read there […]

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Why we do what we do

Blessed are you when people hate you, when they exclude you and insult you and reject your name as evil, because of the Son of Man. Luke 6:22 As we go through life, deciding what to do about things that are wrong, we must be very careful! It’s easy to make enemies – to end […]

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Abused

  The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18 I’m telling you this story because I’ve been writing much about the pain I’ve undergone over the past couple of years. Today I feel I need to fill you in a bit more than I have. Doing so will […]

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Misunderstood

How frustrating to have things you need to explain and you can’t find the words. You’re just not able, mind not working clearly. The result? Misunderstanding. Too often, an undeserved bad reputation follows. You’re never forgiven. Always thought badly of.

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