Marja Bergen

author, mental health activist, follower of Christ

Category: Day by Day (page 1 of 11)

My prayer to you, my Lord

  It’s you alone I fear and no one else. It’s you alone I need. In you I find my strength, my courage and my power. I love you, God, and thank you for your love. May your will be done in heaven and on earth. Always. marja

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Closer to God: leaving borderline

  If you have been diagnosed with BPD, you may be wondering why my Monday morning stories have differed in so many ways from yours. This is because your life has differed from mine. Maybe very much so. All illnesses present themselves in unique ways, depending on our backgrounds. To be honest, that has had […]

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Awakening: living with borderline

  Oh Lord! I need to write some happy things. Is there no happiness at all in BPD? I have forgotten. Don’t even know anymore. But there must be. I remember my times with bouquets – exploring the groupings of flowers with my camera. I remember not being able to stop, taking picture after picture. […]

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Humiliated: living with borderline

Lord, Why don’t people treat me like others? What’s wrong with me? They’ll not speak to me, nor am I welcome to speak. No longer are my opinions heard. Significant emails not answered. Treated as less than human, words and actions hurt deep, with no regard to feelings. Anger replaced my tears. One day respected, […]

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Forever hated? living with borderline

Dear Lord, What happened to the person I was? Hated by someone I never imagined would hate. …and the pain that came, the deep deep pain. Today I sit with the one I love, sorry it’s all so hard on him, sorry I can’t be what I was. Will he too hate me now? It […]

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BPD for pastors

  Today I want to share an article written by Enos Martin and E.A. Vastyan from Christianity Today. In it they advise church leaders on how to treat parishioners suffering with borderline personality disorder (BPD). https://www.christianitytoday.com/pastors/1989/fall/89l4042.html I found it a valuable, yet personally humbling read. Humbling because it paints a picture of how I had […]

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Awakening – living with borderline

  Oh Lord! I need to write some happy things. Is there no happiness at all in BPD? I have forgotten. Don’t even know anymore. But there must be. I remember my times with bouquets – exploring the groupings of flowers with my camera. I remember not being able to stop, taking picture after picture. […]

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Beginnings: living with borderline

  How I wish I could find someone who would understand! Helping others appreciate your emotional pain must be impossible, unless they’ve also experienced it. Thus you’re left very much alone – the pain shrugged off as unimportant by friends and family. And so I write, hoping that perhaps some will understand this clue of […]

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My deep shame: living with borderline

  I had thought I was a good person. I always tried to be. Like other Christians, I tried to follow Christ, with him as my example for living. But I’ve been looking back at my behaviour over the past few years and feel ashamed. More and more – I’m recognizing how easy it is […]

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Stigma my biggest struggle

Dear Marja, I cried reading your article entitled “Feeling Hated?” dated June 7th because I can truly relate. Sometimes what keeps me going are your articles. My struggles are no longer so much about my illness as I have learned how to handle that now especially with the medicines and some self help stuff I […]

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