Marja Bergen

author, mental health activist, follower of Christ

Category: Day by Day (page 1 of 11)

Reprieve

Oh Lord, my God! Help us find a reprieve with your offer to make right what was wrong. To end our own battle by joining the battles of many. To return to peace. Peace. How I long for it! Don’t we all? How I long for healing! Healing for all. Lord God, With you all […]

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Becoming a child again

“Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.” Matthew 18:3 I enjoy little children, the young ones that don’t care how they look to others. They’re real, just the way God made them to be. They live and love with everything they have […]

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The day my life changed – beaten to the ground

  For many years I served in a caring ministry, sharing God’s love with those who needed him badly. I loved the work and gave it my all. Many benefited. But throughout those years I longed to be part of a small group – a place where I would not lead, but simply be a […]

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1. Beaten to the ground

  It happened again today. I woke up to yet another hurtful memory from the past, the pain as though it happened only yesterday. I feel pain, but anger as well. And it’s intense. As intense as it was at first. I wish I knew how to make it go away. But all I can […]

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1. Rejected by a friend

  “Could you please tell Karen I love her?” I called to Karen’s husband as he left to visit her at the hospital. I tried to get the message through to her as often as I could. She had always meant a lot to me. Karen had severe health problems. Although I found it difficult, […]

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My prayer to you, my Lord

  It’s you alone I fear and no one else. It’s you alone I need. In you I find my strength, my courage and my power. I love you, God, and thank you for your love. May your will be done in heaven and on earth. Always. marja

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Closer to God: leaving borderline

  If you have been diagnosed with BPD, you may be wondering why my Monday morning stories have differed in so many ways from yours. This is because your life has differed from mine. Maybe very much so. All illnesses present themselves in unique ways, depending on our backgrounds. To be honest, that has had […]

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Awakening: living with borderline

  Oh Lord! I need to write some happy things. Is there no happiness at all in BPD? I have forgotten. Don’t even know anymore. But there must be. I remember my times with bouquets – exploring the groupings of flowers with my camera. I remember not being able to stop, taking picture after picture. […]

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Humiliated: living with borderline

  2015 – BEFORE LEAVING Lord, Why don’t people treat me like others? What’s wrong with me? They’ll not speak to me, nor am I welcome to speak. No longer are my opinions heard. Significant emails not answered. Treated as less than human, words and actions hurt deep, with no regard to feelings. Anger replaced […]

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Forever hated? living with borderline

Dear Lord, What happened to the person I was? Hated by someone I never imagined would hate. …and the pain that came, the deep deep pain. Today I sit with the one I love, sorry it’s all so hard on him, sorry I can’t be what I was. Will he too hate me now? It […]

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